Okay, where do I start?
So since I last posted on here I've had a new job working as a part of my local council as an admin assistant. So happy to finally have gotten a good job. :D
I've been there nearly 5 months and I can't believe how much had changed, for one thing I got a new tattoo and secondly I finally got round to getting an iPhone. Yay! Lol :p
Other than starting a new job, not much has happened to be honest. Kind of boring, but hopefully ill be posting a lot more in the future if any anyone still reads this :)
Anyways ill be back tomorrow so this is all your getting for now so toodles, bye bye :4
Saturday 6 October 2012
Tuesday 24 April 2012
:D happy times
So far things have going well for me this past couple of weeks, I got a job, bought lots of things that I've always wanted and I've really enjoyed myself :D Though there have been a few setbacks for instance I've had a cold for about a week now (it's clearing up now though) and my phone has been playing up (I seriously need a new one) but despite that, I am content at the moment.
Other than going to work this week I haven't done much all I did was;
Sleep - Arround 16 hours a
Watch 3 movies - Percy Jackson and the lightning thief (about 4 times), Interview with the vampire and One flew over the cuckoo's nest :D
Watch Avatar The last airbender: The legend of Aang & The legend of Korra :D Both amazing.
Eat a tonne of gravy and chips :P
so nothing really that exciting :S lol
I found out some good news today though, my brother is planning on moving out when he comes back from his holiday :D Hopefully he'll find a place quickly and leave :D Oh how I sound so evil lol. If I could afford to I would have moved out years ago but I can't :( So now my goal is to move out by the time I'm 22 the same age as my brother. 2 more years to go :D
Today the most amazing thing happened, i got a phone call about a job interview of a job that i really, really wanted. the only downside being my phone has been playing up so i only got half of the message, fortunatly i managed to take the number down so i'll ringing them tomorrow to ask for details and to confirm that i want to attend the interview :D on another note i also got a new phone, admitidly it was a cheaper one but at least it works :D
so thats all i've been upt to so far this month, i hope to have something a bit more interestiong to write about next time :) bye bye xxxx = ^ - ^ =
Other than going to work this week I haven't done much all I did was;
Sleep - Arround 16 hours a
Watch 3 movies - Percy Jackson and the lightning thief (about 4 times), Interview with the vampire and One flew over the cuckoo's nest :D
Watch Avatar The last airbender: The legend of Aang & The legend of Korra :D Both amazing.
Eat a tonne of gravy and chips :P
so nothing really that exciting :S lol
I found out some good news today though, my brother is planning on moving out when he comes back from his holiday :D Hopefully he'll find a place quickly and leave :D Oh how I sound so evil lol. If I could afford to I would have moved out years ago but I can't :( So now my goal is to move out by the time I'm 22 the same age as my brother. 2 more years to go :D
Today the most amazing thing happened, i got a phone call about a job interview of a job that i really, really wanted. the only downside being my phone has been playing up so i only got half of the message, fortunatly i managed to take the number down so i'll ringing them tomorrow to ask for details and to confirm that i want to attend the interview :D on another note i also got a new phone, admitidly it was a cheaper one but at least it works :D
so thats all i've been upt to so far this month, i hope to have something a bit more interestiong to write about next time :) bye bye xxxx = ^ - ^ =
Thursday 29 March 2012
Update
I finally got my provisional licence this week. It only took 3 years of procrastination to get it, but oh. Now all i have to do is book some driving lessons and star having a look at the highway code. Planning on attempting the theory test first, as everyone I've spoken to/asked has recommended to do it first :D. Wish me luck, cos I'm going to need it:D
On another note, i have found some jobs to apply for and hopefully i'll get them, well at least one of them. fingers crossed :S
On another note, i have found some jobs to apply for and hopefully i'll get them, well at least one of them. fingers crossed :S
Sunday 11 March 2012
Tuesday 6 March 2012
Provisional Licence
Tomorrow I will finally be applying for my provisional drivers licence. :)
yay
I will have to get my photo's done in the morning and take them to the post office then part with money, so sad TT^TT. So hopefully I will be either learning to or already driving by my 20th birthday this year. obviously i won't have a car but oh well. i'll wait until i can drive before worrying about a car. :3
yay
I will have to get my photo's done in the morning and take them to the post office then part with money, so sad TT^TT. So hopefully I will be either learning to or already driving by my 20th birthday this year. obviously i won't have a car but oh well. i'll wait until i can drive before worrying about a car. :3
Sunday 4 March 2012
My Life
When I was 7 I used to wish I was an adult so that I could do anything I wanted. I thought that I'd be confident and happy and able to cope with everything that the world threw at me. Oh how wrong I was. Now that I'm 19 and almost 20 I dream of the simpler times when everything was done for me. I never had to work and could just coast through life. As of October last year I am unemployed and I am hating it so much.
When I finished school at 16 I had no idea what I wanted to do in life, apart from knowing that I did not want to work in a hair salon, as I had previously helped out at my cousin's salon for a couple of days. I hated it, but that's was probably because I had no previous training and didn't know what to. even though all I did was answer the phone, clean, make tea and eventually washed clients hair.
So after school I signed up for college and started doing my As levels. However due to not talking to my old friends from school (who happened to be in all my classes TT^TT) I felt alone and isolated in college so I quit after 3 months.
I went to join the Army Prep course in another college as I'd seen one of my friends on it and saw how much she was enjoying it. I thought that if I joined i too would be happy with it as well, but I guess I have bad judgement, as I ended up hating the course and quit after 2 weeks.
As you can clearly see I've made some bad choices, so finally my sister said that if I couldn't find anything better to do my self then I would have to go to Careers Wales and ask about an apprenticeship or to go on another course. Doing this led me to being put on a work experience programme in a nursery. No doubtingly you've guessed it, I hated it there. It's not that I disliked working with the children it's just that the staff put too much responsibility on the work experience people, and didn't really support us the way they should have. So I ended up quitting after about 2 months.
From there I went on to do more work experience, this time in a retail shop, Wilkinson's. Some people may laugh about working there but I can honestly say that I was the happiest I'd ever been when I worked there. However after 18 months I sadly had to leave as the work experience course I was on was finishing and there was no hope of me getting a job at the end of it.
Before I finished at Wilkinson's my mother managed to get me a job helping out in the kitchen of a pub that a friend of hers's daughter owned. At first I was excited about the prospect of working in a bar but as the days grew closer and the time for me to start arrived I panicked. The first day was horrific I got shouted at constantly and was expected to know how to do everything. That night I came home crying and dreaded working the next day. I managed to go back a second time and even though it was better I still coudn't cope. I wanted to tell my mom but I didn't want to let her down. As the week passed and my next shift was coming up I panicked and had a mini breakdown, I couldn't face going back there. This was when my sister took me to the doctor and found out that I was slightly depressed. The doctor reccomended some activities such as join a group to try and make me happier as she didn't think that medication helps everyone and in some cases makes things worse.
So moving on from that experience I got a job on a market stall newsagents that was owned by a family friend. This was supposed to help build my confidence and self-esteem, however it did the opposite and made things worse. I admit that working on the stall made me speak louder and join in conversations but that's all it did. Initially I hated working there, some days I would come home crying and I wanted to quit and give up so many times. However as I had no other job opportunities available I had to stay. I'm glad I did in a way as I was able to pay for my self to go on holiday for two weeks and pay for spending and all the other paraphernalia that goes with holidays :D. However the feeling of not wanting to be at the job was still there, the reason was that I was constantly being criticised and compared to some one who used to work there before I did. Eventually though, the comments got too much and I quit. and that's what brings me to where I am now.
A lot of people may say that it's my own fault that I'm in this situation , and I agree, however I place my happiness and sanity higher that anything. While I was working at Wilkinson's my slight depression that I had, lifted and I was genuinely happier than I had been in years, however when I worked in the market stall i noticed it starting to slip. I no longer found interest in the things I used to love and didn't care for anything really. I still can't say that I'm happy anymore. I no longer have favorite colour's or food or anything anymore. Whenever I try to think pf stuff like that I just come up empty. Nothing, blank empty thoughts. It makes feel like a freak that I can't enjoy the things I know I love anymore.
OK so if you've manged to read all of this I commend you , and hope that I didn't bore you with a snapshot of my life story.
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When I finished school at 16 I had no idea what I wanted to do in life, apart from knowing that I did not want to work in a hair salon, as I had previously helped out at my cousin's salon for a couple of days. I hated it, but that's was probably because I had no previous training and didn't know what to. even though all I did was answer the phone, clean, make tea and eventually washed clients hair.
So after school I signed up for college and started doing my As levels. However due to not talking to my old friends from school (who happened to be in all my classes TT^TT) I felt alone and isolated in college so I quit after 3 months.
I went to join the Army Prep course in another college as I'd seen one of my friends on it and saw how much she was enjoying it. I thought that if I joined i too would be happy with it as well, but I guess I have bad judgement, as I ended up hating the course and quit after 2 weeks.
As you can clearly see I've made some bad choices, so finally my sister said that if I couldn't find anything better to do my self then I would have to go to Careers Wales and ask about an apprenticeship or to go on another course. Doing this led me to being put on a work experience programme in a nursery. No doubtingly you've guessed it, I hated it there. It's not that I disliked working with the children it's just that the staff put too much responsibility on the work experience people, and didn't really support us the way they should have. So I ended up quitting after about 2 months.
From there I went on to do more work experience, this time in a retail shop, Wilkinson's. Some people may laugh about working there but I can honestly say that I was the happiest I'd ever been when I worked there. However after 18 months I sadly had to leave as the work experience course I was on was finishing and there was no hope of me getting a job at the end of it.
Before I finished at Wilkinson's my mother managed to get me a job helping out in the kitchen of a pub that a friend of hers's daughter owned. At first I was excited about the prospect of working in a bar but as the days grew closer and the time for me to start arrived I panicked. The first day was horrific I got shouted at constantly and was expected to know how to do everything. That night I came home crying and dreaded working the next day. I managed to go back a second time and even though it was better I still coudn't cope. I wanted to tell my mom but I didn't want to let her down. As the week passed and my next shift was coming up I panicked and had a mini breakdown, I couldn't face going back there. This was when my sister took me to the doctor and found out that I was slightly depressed. The doctor reccomended some activities such as join a group to try and make me happier as she didn't think that medication helps everyone and in some cases makes things worse.
So moving on from that experience I got a job on a market stall newsagents that was owned by a family friend. This was supposed to help build my confidence and self-esteem, however it did the opposite and made things worse. I admit that working on the stall made me speak louder and join in conversations but that's all it did. Initially I hated working there, some days I would come home crying and I wanted to quit and give up so many times. However as I had no other job opportunities available I had to stay. I'm glad I did in a way as I was able to pay for my self to go on holiday for two weeks and pay for spending and all the other paraphernalia that goes with holidays :D. However the feeling of not wanting to be at the job was still there, the reason was that I was constantly being criticised and compared to some one who used to work there before I did. Eventually though, the comments got too much and I quit. and that's what brings me to where I am now.
A lot of people may say that it's my own fault that I'm in this situation , and I agree, however I place my happiness and sanity higher that anything. While I was working at Wilkinson's my slight depression that I had, lifted and I was genuinely happier than I had been in years, however when I worked in the market stall i noticed it starting to slip. I no longer found interest in the things I used to love and didn't care for anything really. I still can't say that I'm happy anymore. I no longer have favorite colour's or food or anything anymore. Whenever I try to think pf stuff like that I just come up empty. Nothing, blank empty thoughts. It makes feel like a freak that I can't enjoy the things I know I love anymore.
OK so if you've manged to read all of this I commend you , and hope that I didn't bore you with a snapshot of my life story.
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Saturday 3 March 2012
Boredom
I've realised that I never seem to write anything of any particular interest on here. But that's about to change hopefully :D from today on-wards I will be blogging about the things/goals that I want to achieve by the end of 2012 :D
The Goals :3
1. Learn to drive
2. Get a job
3. Get an iPhone
4. Get a laptop
5. Lose 1 1/2 stone ( :O this will be hard)
6. Dress the way I want (More) :)
7.Cut and dye my hair
8. Finally make videos for YouTube :S
9. Get new glasses
10. Finish decorating my room
As you can see a lot of the goals are materialistic but oh well :) the list was longer but i achieved two of the goals so they got crossed off. yay
anyways going to go now as i have nothing else to say other than , Wish me luck :D . . . . please :)
The Goals :3
1. Learn to drive
2. Get a job
3. Get an iPhone
4. Get a laptop
5. Lose 1 1/2 stone ( :O this will be hard)
6. Dress the way I want (More) :)
7.Cut and dye my hair
8. Finally make videos for YouTube :S
9. Get new glasses
10. Finish decorating my room
As you can see a lot of the goals are materialistic but oh well :) the list was longer but i achieved two of the goals so they got crossed off. yay
anyways going to go now as i have nothing else to say other than , Wish me luck :D . . . . please :)
Saturday 7 January 2012
50 Random Questions :D
1. What is your best friends name?
Atm I'd say I don't have one. But my best friend used to be Kirsty
2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
Pink o.O
3. What are you listening to right now?
Nothing, but in a minute I'll be listening to LMFAO Sexy and I know it :P.
4. Whats your favorite number?
7
5. What was the last thing you ate?
Roast Dinner (chicken :D )
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
Purple
7. How is the weather right now?
Ok I guess, haven't really looked out the window. :S
8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone?
My Dad
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Their hairstyle
10. Do you have a significant other?
Nope
11. Favourite TV show?
NCIS
12. Siblings?
A sister and a brother
13. Height?
160cm last time i checked, so I guess 5"3~ish :S
14. Hair colour?
Chocolate brown :D
15. Eye Colour?
Hazel
16. Do you wear contacts?
I tried, they're okay. I may wear them again in the future, but I'm relatively happy with just glasses for now.
17. Favourite Holiday?
HALLOWEEN!!!
18. Month?
December - The reason - CHRISTMAS = PIG OUT TIME :D
so basicly i love December for the food :P
19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
Yes
20. What was the last movie you watched?
Dorian Grey
21. Favourite Day of the Year?
¬.¬" . . . . . . . . . . . . . 19th July :D
22. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Yes
23. Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)?
Yes, though it gives me a headache
24. Hugs or Kisses?
Huggamuffin
25. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Vanilla, I don't like chocolate all that much. :S Yes I'm weird ¬.¬"
26. Do you want your friends to respond to this?
Sure why not?
27. Who is most likely to respond to a text from you?
My family o.O all of them :)
28. Who is least likely to respond to a text from you?
Everyone else.
29. What books are you reading?
The vampire's assistant - Darren Shan
Delerium - Lauren Oliver
All Together Dead (book 7) - Charlaine Harris
Paranormalcy - Kiersten White
30. Piercings?
Average ear piercings, nothing special
31. Favourite movies?
A tale of two sisters, Gothika, The skeleton key, The bone collector, Memoirs of a geisha etc... etc.... blah blah blah
32. Favourite football Team?
Manchester United. Allways have, allways will, don't know why as I don't even like football :S
33. What are you doing right now?
Well I was looking for manga to read then I found this on my friend's (Sam) facebook page :D
34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
Toffee popcorn
37. Dogs or cats?
Cats
38. Favourite flower?
Lilly's or Cherry blossom's :3
39. Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do?
Yes
40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex?
No but I did when I was about 8
41. Have you ever loved someone?
Nope unless a crush is a valid answer
42. Who would you like to see right now?
I'm kind of content being on my own (not including the cat's , Tom & Jerry), though there are plenty of people I wouldn't mind seeing or seeing again at some point. (stole this answer as I agree with it, plus i edited it slightly :D)
43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
I never went to kindergarten or to nursery as i lived in South Africa untill I was 4 and where I lived (Durban, Johannesburg) you didn't have to start school untill you were 6 :D
44. Have you ever fired a gun?
No
45. Do you like to travel by plane?
Not really, It's kind of boring :S
46. Right-handed or Left-handed?
Right-handed, but I'm trying to force myself to be ambidexterus (or however the hell you spell that word :P )
47. How many pillows do you sleep with?
Two and a cat as a mobile head heater :P (Tommy, my cat, likes to sit near my head when I sleep, so that I can't kick him off of my bed. :P )
48. Are you missing someone?
Nope
49. Do you have a tattoo?
Yes
50. Anybody on Facebook that you'd go on a date with?
The whole of Facebook or the people in my contacts? If it's just my contacts then, No
Atm I'd say I don't have one. But my best friend used to be Kirsty
2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
Pink o.O
3. What are you listening to right now?
Nothing, but in a minute I'll be listening to LMFAO Sexy and I know it :P.
4. Whats your favorite number?
7
5. What was the last thing you ate?
Roast Dinner (chicken :D )
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
Purple
7. How is the weather right now?
Ok I guess, haven't really looked out the window. :S
8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone?
My Dad
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Their hairstyle
10. Do you have a significant other?
Nope
11. Favourite TV show?
NCIS
12. Siblings?
A sister and a brother
13. Height?
160cm last time i checked, so I guess 5"3~ish :S
14. Hair colour?
Chocolate brown :D
15. Eye Colour?
Hazel
16. Do you wear contacts?
I tried, they're okay. I may wear them again in the future, but I'm relatively happy with just glasses for now.
17. Favourite Holiday?
HALLOWEEN!!!
18. Month?
December - The reason - CHRISTMAS = PIG OUT TIME :D
so basicly i love December for the food :P
19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
Yes
20. What was the last movie you watched?
Dorian Grey
21. Favourite Day of the Year?
¬.¬" . . . . . . . . . . . . . 19th July :D
22. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Yes
23. Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)?
Yes, though it gives me a headache
24. Hugs or Kisses?
Huggamuffin
25. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Vanilla, I don't like chocolate all that much. :S Yes I'm weird ¬.¬"
26. Do you want your friends to respond to this?
Sure why not?
27. Who is most likely to respond to a text from you?
My family o.O all of them :)
28. Who is least likely to respond to a text from you?
Everyone else.
29. What books are you reading?
The vampire's assistant - Darren Shan
Delerium - Lauren Oliver
All Together Dead (book 7) - Charlaine Harris
Paranormalcy - Kiersten White
30. Piercings?
Average ear piercings, nothing special
31. Favourite movies?
A tale of two sisters, Gothika, The skeleton key, The bone collector, Memoirs of a geisha etc... etc.... blah blah blah
32. Favourite football Team?
Manchester United. Allways have, allways will, don't know why as I don't even like football :S
33. What are you doing right now?
Well I was looking for manga to read then I found this on my friend's (Sam) facebook page :D
34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
Toffee popcorn
37. Dogs or cats?
Cats
38. Favourite flower?
Lilly's or Cherry blossom's :3
39. Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do?
Yes
40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex?
No but I did when I was about 8
41. Have you ever loved someone?
Nope unless a crush is a valid answer
42. Who would you like to see right now?
I'm kind of content being on my own (not including the cat's , Tom & Jerry), though there are plenty of people I wouldn't mind seeing or seeing again at some point. (stole this answer as I agree with it, plus i edited it slightly :D)
43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
I never went to kindergarten or to nursery as i lived in South Africa untill I was 4 and where I lived (Durban, Johannesburg) you didn't have to start school untill you were 6 :D
44. Have you ever fired a gun?
No
45. Do you like to travel by plane?
Not really, It's kind of boring :S
46. Right-handed or Left-handed?
Right-handed, but I'm trying to force myself to be ambidexterus (or however the hell you spell that word :P )
47. How many pillows do you sleep with?
Two and a cat as a mobile head heater :P (Tommy, my cat, likes to sit near my head when I sleep, so that I can't kick him off of my bed. :P )
48. Are you missing someone?
Nope
49. Do you have a tattoo?
Yes
50. Anybody on Facebook that you'd go on a date with?
The whole of Facebook or the people in my contacts? If it's just my contacts then, No
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