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Whenever I go to write a blog post I sit and think what should I write? I never seem to have an idea in my mind so I usually end up typing whatever comes to mind. I wonder is the right way to do this? Or should I only blog when I have a purpose? Maybe or maybe not, either way it's not like I interact with people much on here so I guess I'm free to type anything.

I used to think that a blog would be a good way to keep people updated on the fun and exciting things I do, except I don't. Don't that is do anything fun or exciting. Causing this to turn into a diary of sorts. It makes me look back and think why did I delete all my previous posts, they weren't intended for others but main;y as a way for me to vent my thoughts. I wish I still had those posts so that I could see how far I've come and to see if I've grown as a person.

So in some ways I'm glad not many people read my blog, this way people only see what I want them to see and not know how depressed I really feel. Whether its a good thing or not, I'd like people to see me as a happy person and not know the real me.