Hello World

Hi and welcome to my page.

My name is Leigh and I'd like to introduce myself to the world of book bloggers. I want to see if I can get better at reviewing the books I read and hopefully encourage others to give it a shot too.
As you can already see I'm pretty new to this, so please be patient with me. But while I'm here I'll give a little update on what I am currently reading.

Throne of Glass by Sarah J Maas - I'm 10 chapters in and enjoying it so far. We've been introduced to the characters or at least the main ones and been given a quick overview of what's to be expected from the book. We follow a main character named Celaena as she is taken from the salt mines of Endovier to represent the Prince in a to-the-death completion. Not much else is known other than Celaena is a trained Assassin who was serving a life sentance after being caught.


Hopefully I will have more to update when I have completed this book. but for now, toodles :)

Night Watch!

Okay, So I'm not a book review kind of person, as let's be honest I'm terrible at them anyways. So here are a few books that I highly recommend. The books are by the late Author Terry Pratchett and are part of his well known Discworld series or collection. He has written over 30 novels all of which are no doubt just as amazing as the three I am about to share. The following books are from one of his mini series called 'city watch'. Although these are a series I have to admit I haven't been reading them in order, which I honestly would advise as they kind of spoil each other when read out of order.

So let's start. The order in which you should read this collection is-

Guards! Guards!
Men at Arms
Feet of clay
Jingo
The fifth elephant
Night watch
Thud!
Snuff

As you can see it's a pretty short collection. Now for the order I've read them in.

Thud!
The fifth elephant
Night watch (still reading this one :D )

Below you will see the cover images and the blurbs from the back of the books so no spoilers.

Thud! - Koom Valley? The was where the trolls ambushed the dwarfs, or the dwarfs ambushed the trolls. It was far away. It was a long time ago.

But if he doesn't solve the murder of just one dwarf, Commander Sam Times of Ankh-Morpork City Watch is going to see it fought again, right outside his office.

With his beloved Watch crumbling around him and war-drums sounding, he must unravel every clue, outwit every assassin and brave any darkness to find the solution. And darkness is following him.

Oh ... and at six o'clock every day, without fail, with no excuses, he must go home to read Where's My Cow?, with all the right farmyard noises, to his little boy.

There are some things you have to do.

The fifth elephant - They say that diplomacy is a gentle art. That mastering it is a lifetime's work. But you do need a certain inclination in that direction. It's not something you can just pick up on the job. 

A few days ago Sam Vimes was a copper. An important copper - chief of police - but still, at his core, a policeman. But today he is an ambassador - to the mysterious, fat-rich country of Uberwald. Today Sam Vimes is also a man on the run.

He has nothing but his native wit and the gloomy trousers of Uncle Vanya (don't ask). It's snowing. It's freezing. And if he can't make it through the forest to civilisation there's going to be a terrible war.

There are monsters on his trail. They're bright. They're fast. They're werewolves - and they're catching up.

Night watch - 'Don't put your trust in revolutions. They always come round again. That's why they're called revolutions. People die, and nothing changes.'

For a policeman, there can be a few things worse than a serial killer loose in your city. Except, a serial killer who targets coppers, and a city on the brink of bloody revolution.

For Commander Sam Vimes, it all feels horribly familiar. He's back in his own rough, tough past without even the clothes he was standing up in when the lightning struck. Living in the past is hard. But he must survive, because he has a job to do. He must track down the murdered and change the outcome of the rebellion. 

The problems; if he wins, he's got no wife, no child, no future . . .

Hello my twenties!

Hello!! So lately I've been trying to improve myself. I've been looking at myself properly and finding areas of my life I'd like to change.

The first thing I'm changing is hate. I recently realised that not matter how much I hate myself, hating won't change anything. So the only way to get better is to make some positive improvements. Starting with my appearance. I've always hated my weight wether I was 9 stone or 11 stone, always called fat and it made me believe it. Now I'm not going to go on any fad diets or try any slimming shakes, instead I'm going to take small steps. Step one, Eat more vegetables. I've been trying to add extra veggies into every meal I eat and I can safely say that I'm really enjoying it. Still no diet yet, but that will start eventually.  The second thing I'm changing is skincare, I recently went and bought a new set of skin care products and some new make up to hopefully help encourage me to put a bit more effort into my face. Clean skin and fresh natural make up to make me smile for me. The third thing I have changed or done, is I finally got my ears pierced a second time :) So I can now have two earrings in each ear.

The last and final thing I will be changing is the biggest. That is what I do in my spare time. Growing up I always spent time alone either just sitting on my own in my room playing on my pc/laptop or sleeping. Sleeping was something I did a lot and tbh it's probably the reason I missed out on a lot of things growing up. My own fault. But now I'm changing that. I've been planning a revamp of my bedroom which will be done soon and when it's complete I won't have a tv or pc in it. The plan is to have my bedroom be a place to relax and unwind without having too many distractions. I will have my bed, clothes and a vanity table. I may eventually put a few shelves up so I can keep some trinkets and a few of my favourite books (Thud! by Terry Pratchett - Love this book :D) to keep me sane :,D. Hopefully this will mean I spend less time in my room and encourage me to spend time with family and to go out more. As where I live there are plenty of places to go walking and lots of things to see and do provided you're not too lazy to go out and find them. 

As you can see, for the first in probably my entire blog history I'm actually being positive about myself and the future. I'm spending more time investing in my own mental health and I'd like to think that it's working. Yes, so that it for this post. hopefully I'll have more to say soon. Oh and the title of this in reference to a Korean drama I love by the same name, it's currently on Netflix, so if you're curious look it up and let me know what you think.

kk bye bye :) xx

*insert update title here*

Okay, so every time I come on here I seem to only post updates, which once again is what I am doing now. So with out furtheradew (<.< sounds better spoken >.>) here is my update.

College -  I have only passed one of my AAT level 3 exams and as a result I have decided that enough is enough for now and have finished the course. I will however go back to it at a later date through a different provider and hopefully pass it :) Although I failed I'd like to consider it a proud failure as I never expected to even pass one exam on this level.

Work - I'm still at the same job as I've had for the past two years which is amazing for me. As usually due to no fault of my own (contracts ending, moving country, etc) I never stay in one place for longer than a year,  out of all the jobs I've had to date this is my longest running role and I'm so happy. I have become an important member of staff in my office and I feel that I work well with the other people in our office. I'm learning new things constantly and picking up new skills which will help me in the future should anything happen with my job. I am an accounts clerk now as opposed to an apprentice and its nice to finally be a normal staff member :)

Life - My life has always been a rollercoaster, and not much has changed in that respect. Well some things have changed but nothing really out of the ordinary. Things that have changed have mainly been materialistic or superficial as of late such as buying my very first MacBook and finally starting on my Alice in wonderland sleeve tattoo on my left arm. I also have a big thigh piece booked in for the 19th of this month and I'm so excited to get it done :)

Tattoos- As I mentioned above I recently got some and have planned some new tattoos. So for any not who reads this and is curious to why I got them, then here it is. I've always hated myself and my body and for as long as I can remember I've wanted to change how I look. So in September of 2011 whilst I was on holiday in Bulgaria I decided to make a change, I got my first tattoo and OMG the happiness I felt at that moment was amazing. For the first time ever I was happy with my body. I loved my new tattoo and it made me happy, something that my family and friends commented on. so there it is, the reason I get tattoos is simple, they make me happy and proud of my body. With tattoos I am able to have pieces of art with me wherever I go, I am a walking canvas for someone else's masterpieces. As a result I'm starting to love my body. Tattoos may not be for everyone but I hope that you will respect me in my choice to get them even if you personally wouldn't have any.

FAT!! - right so as I've said countless times on here, I hate my body, so to combat this I am going to attempt to change this. I will be re-joining the gym at the end of the month and switching to a HEALTHY low calorie diet in order to shift my weight. I plan to eat healthy ( 3 meals & 3 snacks a day) and to exercise at least 4 times a week. Starting with gentle exercises working up to intense work out sessions. I'll hopefully start doing some classes when I'm a lot fitter and can actually last the whole class. When I start my journey I will try and post my progress here, with my start weight and then posting anytime I see or feel some changes :)

So this is all for my updates, I don't have much else to say atm, which is good and for a change my update this time was pretty positive :D


So once again I anyone has read this, please feel free to comment bellow and ask me anything. Share how your day was and just say hi :) I don't expect many people to see this but it's still nice to know that even one person does :)


bye for now :)

2017 update

Okay, so I haven't updated this site in the past two years. I guess that's not really that important as people don't really read my posts. But that's okay since I only really use this as a random place to put my thoughts. In some ways it's like talking to someone even though I don't get a response. I find it helpful.

Anywhoo, so what has happened in the past two years. Well for one I passed AAT level 2 which was an amazing achievement for me as I never though I'd last longer than a few months on the course. I was able to make my supervisor in work proud, which is good as I have since been put forward to learn new tasks and skills in my work. I continued on to do level 3 which is an Advanced Diploma in Accounting, I've since found it to be a lot trickier than the previous level and even if I pass the year I know I won't be continuing onto the next level.

In case anyone does read this and is a little bit confused, I am currently an apprentice Accountant in the accounts department of a steel stockholders. As a result I am being trained in a specific area of accounts but that's okay as I personally don't think I'd be able to work in the other sectors. (constantly correcting typing errors here >.<)

What else can I update with? hmm . . .  so as of last year I am no longer a single pringle in a bagel world. I now have a boyfriend *insert applause here* yay me. So other than that there isn't really much to update on. I have planned a few tattoos so hopefully I'll get those done soon :) I plan to start my sleeve on my left arm and get a few pieces on my left leg. I still need to word on the designs for my right side but that can wait as I have plenty of time :)

Well that's my mini update, I'll try to post more often from now on but for now that's all from me. so bye bye :)

Update - June 2015

Okay!

Okay okay okay okay okay okay! 

So, as always I'm going to start this post complaining about my life followed by my idealistic plans on how I'm going to fix things (which never actually end up happening) and end it on a "oh well that's life" note. 

Right? Here comes the complaining. My life is dull boring and not at all what I had dreamed it would be like when I was a child. My day consists of -wake up - work - eat - bath - sleep and repeat! Which is boring. So where do I start? I need to change things. If I don't I'll end up going insane. 

So, clearly 2015 isn't shaping up tooo well to be MY year, but it's not over yet, or so I say. I hope to change things. It's just at the moment it's a little bit tricky. hopefully things will change soon and I'll be able to make changes that will be of benefit to me. 

What do I need to change? It's simple, my dependency on others. I rely too much on others and every-time I get let down, as I'm clearly not high enough up on their priorities.

Another thing I am going to do is stop wasting energy on trying to make things work with people. I spend time worrying whether or not people are going to like me or not and I've had enough. I'm sick of trying hard to get people to see the real me. But now I no longer care. I'm no longer going to be the person everyone wants me to be, I'm not the baby, I am my own person and I have dreams and goals and aspirations.

I don't want to live in this small town all my life. I want to escape and start a new. I look around my room and feel nothing towards my possessions, things I used to love. These past two years have taught me valuable lessons, that it's people that matter not things. I lost two very important people in my life and it made me realise this, life is short, you never know what tomorrow brings. so I ask myself this question, If I were to die tomorrow, would I be able to say I lived my life to the full? The answer is no. No I haven't. I live in a town I loathe in a country I hate. But I suppose that isn't going to change anytime soon. Is it even realistic to dream I'll ever be able to move to New Zealand. I wish I could give up on that dream, but I can't, I've tasted freedom and it's too good to give up.

So how am I going to change, well first step is going to happen shortly. Fingers crossed it happens. Me and my mom are going to be moving house. We'll be moving closer to my sister which will be good for my mom, but it will also have benefits for me. The gym I intend to join is across the road and my favourite hairdressers (owned by my cousin) is down the road. So I'll be able to start making the changes to my life that I hoped to make all those  years ago. 

The goals you ask? Simple. Here they are:

Lose weight - I want to go back to being 9st

Get out more - I spend to much time alone and I'm tired of it

Look and dress the way I do in my dreams

Be more confident

Be ambitious

And most of all, I want to gain a purpose, a reason to live. At the moment all i'm doing is coasting through life. Nothing changes and I'm constantly bored. Okay maybe that last one is a lie, (clearly not in a happy mood right now).

So before I get all moody (or even worse), I'm going to go. 

So Good Bye <3 p="">

:(

The thing with depression. Just when you think things are starting to feel better and improve, it comes back. The sinking feelings, the anxiety and the desire to disappear from the world. To not think, to not feel. The numbness is better than the constant anxiety and feeling that you'll never be good enough :( 

When you lose interest in the things you love, when you no longer care about things or anything in general. 

The tiredness and lethargy. :(