Hello my twenties!

Hello!! So lately I've been trying to improve myself. I've been looking at myself properly and finding areas of my life I'd like to change.

The first thing I'm changing is hate. I recently realised that not matter how much I hate myself, hating won't change anything. So the only way to get better is to make some positive improvements. Starting with my appearance. I've always hated my weight wether I was 9 stone or 11 stone, always called fat and it made me believe it. Now I'm not going to go on any fad diets or try any slimming shakes, instead I'm going to take small steps. Step one, Eat more vegetables. I've been trying to add extra veggies into every meal I eat and I can safely say that I'm really enjoying it. Still no diet yet, but that will start eventually.  The second thing I'm changing is skincare, I recently went and bought a new set of skin care products and some new make up to hopefully help encourage me to put a bit more effort into my face. Clean skin and fresh natural make up to make me smile for me. The third thing I have changed or done, is I finally got my ears pierced a second time :) So I can now have two earrings in each ear.

The last and final thing I will be changing is the biggest. That is what I do in my spare time. Growing up I always spent time alone either just sitting on my own in my room playing on my pc/laptop or sleeping. Sleeping was something I did a lot and tbh it's probably the reason I missed out on a lot of things growing up. My own fault. But now I'm changing that. I've been planning a revamp of my bedroom which will be done soon and when it's complete I won't have a tv or pc in it. The plan is to have my bedroom be a place to relax and unwind without having too many distractions. I will have my bed, clothes and a vanity table. I may eventually put a few shelves up so I can keep some trinkets and a few of my favourite books (Thud! by Terry Pratchett - Love this book :D) to keep me sane :,D. Hopefully this will mean I spend less time in my room and encourage me to spend time with family and to go out more. As where I live there are plenty of places to go walking and lots of things to see and do provided you're not too lazy to go out and find them. 

As you can see, for the first in probably my entire blog history I'm actually being positive about myself and the future. I'm spending more time investing in my own mental health and I'd like to think that it's working. Yes, so that it for this post. hopefully I'll have more to say soon. Oh and the title of this in reference to a Korean drama I love by the same name, it's currently on Netflix, so if you're curious look it up and let me know what you think.

kk bye bye :) xx

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Okay, so every time I come on here I seem to only post updates, which once again is what I am doing now. So with out furtheradew (<.< sounds better spoken >.>) here is my update.

College -  I have only passed one of my AAT level 3 exams and as a result I have decided that enough is enough for now and have finished the course. I will however go back to it at a later date through a different provider and hopefully pass it :) Although I failed I'd like to consider it a proud failure as I never expected to even pass one exam on this level.

Work - I'm still at the same job as I've had for the past two years which is amazing for me. As usually due to no fault of my own (contracts ending, moving country, etc) I never stay in one place for longer than a year,  out of all the jobs I've had to date this is my longest running role and I'm so happy. I have become an important member of staff in my office and I feel that I work well with the other people in our office. I'm learning new things constantly and picking up new skills which will help me in the future should anything happen with my job. I am an accounts clerk now as opposed to an apprentice and its nice to finally be a normal staff member :)

Life - My life has always been a rollercoaster, and not much has changed in that respect. Well some things have changed but nothing really out of the ordinary. Things that have changed have mainly been materialistic or superficial as of late such as buying my very first MacBook and finally starting on my Alice in wonderland sleeve tattoo on my left arm. I also have a big thigh piece booked in for the 19th of this month and I'm so excited to get it done :)

Tattoos- As I mentioned above I recently got some and have planned some new tattoos. So for any not who reads this and is curious to why I got them, then here it is. I've always hated myself and my body and for as long as I can remember I've wanted to change how I look. So in September of 2011 whilst I was on holiday in Bulgaria I decided to make a change, I got my first tattoo and OMG the happiness I felt at that moment was amazing. For the first time ever I was happy with my body. I loved my new tattoo and it made me happy, something that my family and friends commented on. so there it is, the reason I get tattoos is simple, they make me happy and proud of my body. With tattoos I am able to have pieces of art with me wherever I go, I am a walking canvas for someone else's masterpieces. As a result I'm starting to love my body. Tattoos may not be for everyone but I hope that you will respect me in my choice to get them even if you personally wouldn't have any.

FAT!! - right so as I've said countless times on here, I hate my body, so to combat this I am going to attempt to change this. I will be re-joining the gym at the end of the month and switching to a HEALTHY low calorie diet in order to shift my weight. I plan to eat healthy ( 3 meals & 3 snacks a day) and to exercise at least 4 times a week. Starting with gentle exercises working up to intense work out sessions. I'll hopefully start doing some classes when I'm a lot fitter and can actually last the whole class. When I start my journey I will try and post my progress here, with my start weight and then posting anytime I see or feel some changes :)

So this is all for my updates, I don't have much else to say atm, which is good and for a change my update this time was pretty positive :D


So once again I anyone has read this, please feel free to comment bellow and ask me anything. Share how your day was and just say hi :) I don't expect many people to see this but it's still nice to know that even one person does :)


bye for now :)

2017 update

Okay, so I haven't updated this site in the past two years. I guess that's not really that important as people don't really read my posts. But that's okay since I only really use this as a random place to put my thoughts. In some ways it's like talking to someone even though I don't get a response. I find it helpful.

Anywhoo, so what has happened in the past two years. Well for one I passed AAT level 2 which was an amazing achievement for me as I never though I'd last longer than a few months on the course. I was able to make my supervisor in work proud, which is good as I have since been put forward to learn new tasks and skills in my work. I continued on to do level 3 which is an Advanced Diploma in Accounting, I've since found it to be a lot trickier than the previous level and even if I pass the year I know I won't be continuing onto the next level.

In case anyone does read this and is a little bit confused, I am currently an apprentice Accountant in the accounts department of a steel stockholders. As a result I am being trained in a specific area of accounts but that's okay as I personally don't think I'd be able to work in the other sectors. (constantly correcting typing errors here >.<)

What else can I update with? hmm . . .  so as of last year I am no longer a single pringle in a bagel world. I now have a boyfriend *insert applause here* yay me. So other than that there isn't really much to update on. I have planned a few tattoos so hopefully I'll get those done soon :) I plan to start my sleeve on my left arm and get a few pieces on my left leg. I still need to word on the designs for my right side but that can wait as I have plenty of time :)

Well that's my mini update, I'll try to post more often from now on but for now that's all from me. so bye bye :)