SOOOOOO HAPPY

Wahahahahaahaha I'm so excited!! I've made some plans to meet up some new friends woohoo :3 A day out hunting with Seth and Jenny and then a movie marathon day with Sara, I'm not sure who else will be there with her though XD I'm so happy :)

I just need to plan some more things to do so that I can get to know them better. I have 3 months left in New Zealand but that could potentially change to being 8 months XD I'd just need to work out my accommodation and work. I'm so glad to feeling myself again, I'm loving movies and music again so I'm feeling awesome XD

But I have to say that I never knew having a crush on someone could be so hard :,) especially seeing as I'm such a shy person. How to I get to know them better and become close to them? I know trying too hard is not going to work as I have to be myself but yeah I'm totally not experienced in this department but that's okay I can only try my best and hope for a good result. Hopefully things will fall into place :D Fingers crossed, wish me luck :3

The truth

On the 30th March 2014 I attempted to commit suicide. Recently due to a chain of events I'm starting to think 'would it have been better if I had died?' I took an overdose but clearly I didn't take enough as i ended up being perfectly fine. Sometimes I wish I was dead, but then I think of my friends and family who'd be sad. It's one of the only reasons I haven't tried again. That and the fear that it won't work again. Dying isn't the hard part, surviving is :,(